Confessional

Today's post is going to be about things I like that I am either embarrassed to admit that I like or pretend I don't like. I think we all have a few things that we like that are silly or weird or whatever. There's nothing wrong with that! So in a step towards self acceptance... I will post these things here for you all to read, and an explanation to go along with it.
1; Chris Brown's music- I like Chris Brown songs. They're catchy. They make me want to dance. What I don't like is the fact that he hit a woman. I don't think it's acceptable to ever hit a woman (Unless the circumstances are seriously extenuating) so I have a hard time with the fact that I like his songs. After the whole him and Rihanna thing came out I really wanted to stop listening to his songs... But they're too catchy. Even if he is a jerk.
2; Justin Bieber songs- Ugh, this one I really can't stand. I don't like all of them obviously, but "Boyfriend"? That song is my jam! He's an annoying child who wears his pants to low and I generally dislike his generation of kids... But man! I can't help but jam out to some of his songs. Sigh.
3; Teen Wolf- Teen Wolf is a really amazing show on MTV. Yes, it's based more towards High School kids. Yes, it's cheesy. Yes, it's on MTV. Yes... It's called Teen Wolf. BUT I LOVE THE SHOW OKAY?! Every Monday night I tune in and watch it rapturously. And I have no shame about this one. The plot is really smart and complex, it uses a lot of mythology... and the actors are just really funny and attractive okay?!!!!!
4; Bratz dolls; This one is funny. So I have always loved dolls, but instead of playing Barbie I liked Bratz dolls because they had cooler clothes, cuter faces, more shoe options... and awesome hair. And I played with Bratz dolls until I was 16. Yep, I just said 16. One of my best friends, Brittney, came over for the first time while we were in High school. I remember her walking into my room and we were just talking and stuff, and then I showed her my Bratz doll collection. She definitely thought it was weird and funny but thank goodness I didn't scare my only friend away haha. I have since stopped playing with Bratz dolls, but sometimes when I'm in Target or something I'll walk down the aisle and look at them, and look at the Monster High dolls and wish I was still young enough to play with them. That and pray I have at least one girl when my Husband and I start having kids. Lol.
5; Anime- Now I am not necessarily ashamed of this one persay. I have always been drawn to Japanese culture and I really discovered anime for the first time when I was around 13. There was a Miyazaki marathon on Cartoon Network and my brother and sister and I watched pretty much all of his movies. And then we started watching things like Naruto, One Piece, IGPX, etc. The list goes on. I still binge watch anime to this day. Netflix has a really good selection. My husband always makes fun of me because I'm a snob about watching anime in the original Japanese but just turning the subtitles on. English Dub sucks.

There are many more, I promise, but these were just the funny ones that came to mind! Have any embarrassing things you like? Comment about 'em!
<3
Kara

The Bachelor; What has this country come to?

As we speak, I (Like many other women) am sitting down in front of my television to watch the Bachelor. I have been watching this show for quite some time. As a young girl I remember my mom and I sitting down to watch this "Girly" show together. It was a fun and feminine show to watch together, and I enjoyed every second. The romance, the courting... it was all like something out of a fairytale to young me.
Now I have a lot to say about this topic so bear with me as I organize my thoughts. Or talk all scattered like. Whichever.

I am older and more experienced now watching this show than I have ever been, obviously, so there are lots of things that have been brought to my attention.

Just to start, I will give a brief synopsis of the show this season for those of you who are unfamiliar with the premise of this "competition."

One Juan Pablo, a Venezuelan-single-dad-bachelor, is on the look-out for love. This show gives him a very public chance at romance. The only catch; he has to decide between and court 20+ women at a time, slowly eliminating them until there are only two left. And then? He proposes to one. After only knowing them and courting them for the span of the show. After dating all of these women at once. What?

How is this a real thing, honestly? Well let me answer that. Because women are suckers. Because we have such low self esteem that for some reason we don't think we deserve more than a T.V. show "hunk" making googly eyes at us while also simultaneously ogling and falling for several other women. We eat that stuff up! We think it's ROMANTIC and DRAMATIC and completely overlook how weird and screwed up it is that this guy is making out with one woman, then another, then another... And they all know and are OKAY with it? I mean I obviously watch the show. Even I got sucked into the whole thing.

The show is romantic. I won't deny that. However the general female population seems to find Juan Pablo a heck of a lot more attractive than I do. And I see right through his "empathy" towards the other women. I mean for goodness sakes, he is a MAN. He is enjoying every second of these beautiful woman throwing themselves at him, fighting over him. Not to say all men are like that (My husband isn't) but Juan Pablo obviously is. In the previous episode he very obviously slept with one of the women, and then later stated to her that it was "wrong" and he wouldn't want his daughter to see that. He placed a lot of the blame on her (And she is already a crazypants lady) instead of accepting the blame as his own. The poor girl isn't the one with the daughter. You are, sir. So act as such, on a tv show that YOU signed up to be on.

Another problem I have with this guy is a kind of obvious one. Juan Pablo came out as saying that he didn't think a gay bachelor would ever be a good idea because it doesn't set a good example to kids.

I wonder if this guy listens to himself when he talks. Okay... So a gay bachelor wouldn't be a good example to kids? Why, because of the sexual immorality? Pot, meet kettle. Does he think it would be a bad example because, GOD FORBID, the kids will see two men together and suddenly turn gay?
Like I said, GOD FORBID someone is gay and GOD FORBID A child sees two people who care about each other. I'm going to stop talking about this part before I get more angry than I already am... but I have so many qualms with this guy.

This post, in conclusion, was mostly a rant. Haha. I'm not going to stop watching the show. I'm not really one of those people who stops watching a showing or buying a product because I don't agree with whoever is running it/ whatever. But basically I just think women need to have better standards for themselves... And Juan Pablo reminds me of a really stupid (And I mean lowest IQ ever) guy I once dated.
Oh, And I'm glad that even though my mommy and I watched this show together when I was growing up, she always taught me to have standards for myself, and not to be mean to other women or other people just because I was jealous or whatever. Unless they're bitches. Lololol. ;)

Have respect for yourself ladies!
Love <3
Kara

And it feels like the first time!

Once upon a time... In a land far, far away...

Okay, obviously I am not a princess in some far away land. (Or maybe I am...) But I am a 22 year old girl who decided one day that starting a blog would be a good idea. Haha. I've been contemplating starting a blog for sometime now, however my skepticisms have kept me from it up until this point. What made me stop being a skeptic you ask?

Well. Boredom mostly I suppose. I was worried about starting a blog because of the amount of people out here on the interwebs who think everything they think or have ever thought is important. And I do not want to be one of those people. Don't get me wrong, I am a strong believer in the mantra that everyone is important (Doctor Who anyone?) and that a lot of things that people think and do are original and to be celebrated and reveled in. However, I believe that the endlessness and ease of the internet and facebook and twitter and the like have created this false sense with our general public (But mostly our youth) that every single thing that enters their brain is something they should share with the world, PERMANENTLY. Yeah, the delete button exists, but so do screenshots and internet data banks... or whatever.

Alright off that tangent. The reason I created this blog isn't really just due to boredom. It's because I want to make a difference. That sounds lame and naive but making a difference has always been this itch inside of me. It's at the core of pretty much everything I do.

My goal for this blog is to post anywhere from every other day, to once a week. I will be posting a lot of reviews for movies, books and television shows that I like. I will also be posting about subjects anywhere from spirituality to sexuality to relationships... You get the point.

Now just to give you a clue as to what these posts might be like, I will tell you a few crucial details about myself.

One; I am a Christian. Now before any of you get your panties in a wad, let me elaborate. I think there is a large difference in being spiritual and in being religious. I consider myself spiritual, not religious. Spirituality is one of the most important things for any human being to have. It incorporates self awareness, purpose, and so much more. I think it's crucial that anyone studies other religions, just as much as I think it's important for everyone to try and empathize with others. How are you going to know what you believe in if you don't know what's out there? I took a World Religions class when I was still going to college (More on that later) a couple of years ago. I was one of the only "devout" Christians in this class. We studied Hinduism, Buddhism (Which I loved), Judaism, Christianity, and Islam. I found interest and respect for each of these religious classifications. When we arrived at the Christianity sector, I whipped out my Bible and starting looking up whatever my teacher was explaining, along with following in the text books. Now imagine me as a Hermione type of character. Sitting in the front row, bushy hair, and annoyingly explaining things along with the teacher, raising my hand at every instance possible. I'm sure a lot of people found me bothersome. I didn't particularly care though, because I was pursuing knowledge and enlightenment.

All of that aside, I really am not your typical Christian. I feel like today's world is divided into very black and white views of how someone with any "religious" affiliation should be. Most think that anyone who claims to be a Christian should be the kind of person who doesn't like gays, never curses, is stuck up... Et cetera. I consider myself to be unconventional in that I believe that Jesus is LOVE and I practice that. I don't like to judge others, I don't like when anyone is mean to one another, I have lots and lots of friends who are gay and I believe it is not my place to tell ANYONE if they're going to Hell or not. That's God's job and not one I particularly envy. Haha. And let's be clear here, I am by no means perfect. No one is. I curse (Working on it), I smoke cigarettes (Bad habit, Working on that too..), I react out of anger or hurt sometimes... You get the point. But I strive so hard to love others and to continually better myself. And help others. That's a big one.

Two; I am married. "Oh no, you're 22 and you're married? You're obviously a southerner!" Okay well yeah I am a Georgia girl. And yeah I did marry a little young by a lot of standards, but in case everyone isn't getting it, I don't really go by the standards of others.

I met my husband in highschool. We didn't date in highschool, even though I had a massive crush on him. (I'll post that fantastic story later...) We graduated the same year. He went off and joined the Marines while I pretty much did nothing. Haha I kid, I went to college for a bit. Fast forward to 2 years after graduation and we start dating. Fast forward two more years and we're married. We got married this past September and it was the best day of my life, and the best decision I have ever made. I love being married. Now keeping that in mind, marriage is hard. It's something you have to work at every day. But I married my best friend so I guess that makes it a little easier. :]

Three; I love people. I really do.

I love the ins and outs of humans, our relationships with one another, the psychology behind it all, how much of a beautiful mystery we all are. I love helping people and playing matchmaker and being a shoulder to cry on. I love people and I hope I never lose the wonder I have every time I think about the human race.

Four; I love cats.

Lolololololololol. I'm sorry I had to do it. I am a CRAZY CAT LADY. A really crazy cat lady. I mean I only have two but I spoil them rotten and I am a little obsessed with them at times. Yolo?

Five; I'm weird. Yep that's right. Weird. Not like zooey-deshanel-hipster-I-wear-thick-rimmed-glasses-and-act-quirky-weird. No, I mean straight up weird. I love anime. I'm slightly ocd. (Okay maybe more than slightly) I love reading. My clothes have to match a certain way. There are so many weird random things about me that you, my future reader, will come to learn. And I hope you will love all of them as much as I do. (If you don't though it's your loss, seriously.)

Six; Last but not least. My family is EVERYTHING to me. I have the best husband, mom, dad, step dad, 20 year old brother, 18 year old sister, and 5 year old brother anyone could ask for. Not to mention my in-laws (Who are pretty much the most amazing in-laws anyone could ask for), my friends that I consider family.... The list goes on. My family is amazing. They have their flaws, don't get me wrong. But they are my support system and my backbone and my heart. They make me a better person and they are my best friends.

To sum this post up, I am blessed. Beyond blessed! I look forward to writing more and sharing stories, opinions and the like with you, my future reader!

<3

Kara